It's just practise.

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You will know exactly which buttons to push in order to achieve your aims. The planets indicate you will have little shame when it comes to feathering your nest and manipulating situations to your advantage.

After going through the hell that I put myself through at gym, it's occured to me that if I'm going to do what I want to do, I can't take it lying down anymore. I'm going to be stressed. I need to stress myself and I need to press on through it. Any more time lost is just delaying me, and I can't afford to keep doing that. I've been doing it for too long without realising it.

I found some very funky places in the same area I go past every damn day. I can't believe the little things that are around that surely nobody knows about. I don't know how this city manages to hide so many cool places in so many locations. And I haven't even seen much of it. Hell, I can't even find some of the places when I have rough directions, which is a bit rare for me.

I don't know, I don't get it. I don't know how I turned out to be the person I am. I don't always push myself, but I can if I really want to, and when I do, I tend to go as far as I can. It doesn't matter whether the results work out for the better or not. I just need to know I tried, and that I tried hard. Mentally, emotionally, or physically.

If my dad's tried to drill one thing into me, it's that I shouldn't do things that make my life harder when I could do the same thing, with help, much easier. He used the example of moving back in with them instead of moving out on my own, so it fell right through, but there was obviously some truth to it.

I just wish it could be easy. Of course, I'm fooling myself.

It's not impossible. I shouldn't make it so difficult.

Comments

[chocolate-4ever.livejournal.com]

agree with u on most of decisions u ve made!!i think u didnt find those places cos u were just concentrated on something else, and weren't looking around u everywhere..Such things happen often.To me,at least:).
Nice to meet u, byt he way.I just decided to comment u cos i read all of your entries and u re my friend!!

[silne.livejournal.com]

Nothing worth having is easy to work for. Everything worthwhile takes a lot of effort and then you can be even prouder of yourself that you achieved it.

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You might be surprised.

[aiofe.livejournal.com]

mm, dunno. My job, for example; I consider it to be quite worthwhile. And while I am working hard to keep it, to get it in the first place was the work of about 5 minutes answering a newsgroup post, and a casual 10min chat.

Also, I consider the various knitting gifts I've made over the last couple of years to be quite worthwhile; but they weren't hard, they just took a while.

Falling in love with Steve was absolutely effortless. And possibly the most worthwhile thing I've ever done.

Sure, there are some things in my life that I busted my guts for - my degree, for example, acnd currently keeping my job - but there are many things where I just got it without a great deal of exertion, and I'm still proud of those things.

I would tend to say - anything you put effort into is worth it, if you learn something from the experience, but if you succeeded beyond your wildest dreams without half trying, that's also something to be valued, since you learnt how easy some incredible things can be.

But that's just in my experience.

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Couldn't have said it better myself.

[typetnt.livejournal.com]

Dude, you are getting an eye for hidden areas in Melbourne. I was gonna show you a heap last time when I was down, but you were passed out.

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What, in the morning?